My Birthday Gift to Self…

04 Jul 2011 4 Comments

by dollywilde in Uncategorized

-This post is part of the 2011 “Love Your Body Day Blog Carnival” linking to: http://www.now.org/news/blogs/index.php/sayit/2011/10/19/lybd-blog-carnival-posts

Today I am 45, or as I like to put it, “five years away from 50!” Truly, I love getting older, always have.

My Gift to Self began yesterday when I walked into Palmela G Swimwear Design with my daughter with no particular intention other than to check out the new swimwear store, since my old one, Turtle Beach, had sadly closed down a couple years back. Not having realised that Palmela was the same womyn who had worked at Turtle Beach, and whose Goddess Wisdom had once coached me through a difficult body image moment while trying on bikinis, needless to say, I was very happy to see her! She remembered me and my daughter immediately, and ’twas a happy reunion as I told her how she had once said something that changed the course of my Life in regard to body image and that I have shared that Goddess Wisdom with many other Sisters since. I ended up buying not one, but two very sexy custom designed suits, which will be ready for me on tuesday, at no additional charge for labour, 10% off because I rescue animals, and an additional 10% off for my birthday – AND she’s throwing in two matching specially designed headbands! Palmela wasn’t even supposed to come in and open her shop yesterday.

All this achieved on the first day I began my downward spiral toward poor body image messages…

I could blame it on L.A., and I’m sure some of that would be true, what with all the heavy focus on anorexic thinness here, and the fact that I haven’t felt this way for some time where I live. Coming here tends to bring it back out in me. But rather than spending time in blame, I choose to Gift my Self with a list of positive body Affirmations, with the intention that I will carry this Gift with me all day and thereby raise my vibrations to feeling as I usually do, which is really that I’m the perfect size for Me!

~At 45, having raised two kids to adulthood, my body is a miracle to behold: toned, curvy, and strong.

~ Even not at 45, I still have a wonderful body.

~ I have curves in all the most traditionally feminine places.

~ My body is well-proportioned – it doesn’t carry all its weight in one or two spots.

~ My body is strong.

~ The strength my body possesses enables me to have lovely posture

~ I have very smooth skin, smoother than others even much younger than I.

~ The colour of my skin is a pretty one, and I tan perfectly.

~ My feet are sexy.

~ My ankles are slender, as are my calves.

~ My knees are strong and look cute, as they lean inward toward each other a bit.

~ My thighs are fuller and sensually shaped.

~ My hips are proportionately wide.

~ My buttocks are full, firm, and perfectly rounded.

~ As a Fire Horse, I love the way I can look at the shape of a horse from behind, and see my own image, as horses are beautiful!

~ My Sex is sweet, inviting, petite and prominent in all the right ways, and the Giver and Receiver of much pleasure. It speaks to me, protecting me at all the moments I need to feel safe, and Intuitively knows how to Be at all times. It is Healthy in every way.

~ My waist is small, and the arch of my back swoops deeply inward, giving me a lovely curve, especially when viewing me from the side.

~ My stomach is perfectly flat and softly round at the same time and in just the right place. It is a very womynly stomach, very touchable, sensual, and sweet. No matter what I have put it through, it remains Strong, inviting, and Nurturing. My stomach is responsible for holding a lot of “stuff,” and it does so with such feminine Dignity. Thank you, Stomach…

~ My breasts are full, soft, and very, very womynly. They have the perfect sized areolae and their colour is a lovely mixture of pink and brown. My nipples are prominent and bold and finally give me pleasure again after having given my two babies sustenance years ago.

~ My collar bone is perfectly prominent in the most lady-like of ways. I like how it shows in low collared dresses and tunics.

~ My shoulders are rounded like the womyn from the 1920′s, which happens to be my favourite decade!

~ My arms are soft, yet toned, and the wrists are tiny, which I enjoy very much!

~ My hands are strong. Feminine with long fingers, smooth, full of Life and much character…As I see them play the piano or typing, as they are now, I am so proud of them and what they can do, have done, and will continue to do for me. They function perfectly. They serve perfectly. The receive perfectly.

~ My neck is slender, very soft, and sensual, possessing much feeling and giving much  pleasure to Self and Other.

~ My hair is playful, healthy, cute, sexy, and flirty. I love the grey strands that fall perfectly within its  rather 1920′s cut, and I admire its Strength and Recovery.

~ My face is the quintessential 1920′s look. This I love in every way, as this is my favourite period of time! I love my mouth’s smile and the way my strong, white, healthy teeth are a little crooked and protruding at the top, just enough to peek through my lips at certain moments. My nose is shaped exactly as it should be, and I like its bridge a lot. My eyes are big, expressive, intense, full, emotional, and wise. I love their green colour and the unique and rarely found black liner around the green pupil. My eyelashes are dark, full, and naturally curly and long, which I get from my beloved Grandpa Jack, and that makes me feel even more Special. I like my cheekbones being placed exactly where they are, thanks to my Cherokee Native American ancestors. I have a high forehead, and this is a special quality that is often associated with both intelligence and being a Cancer, two things I admire! My ears are the perfect size for my head and face, and their shape is cute and feminine. They hear well, and they invite and receive a lot of sensual pleasure, too! My head is well shaped and sized, and looks fabulous, even without a speck of hair on it! (I know, as I once shaved my head completely, and the feedback was amazingly positive from all different walks of Life and age groups!) It functions well, and carries inside it more than sufficient Power, Intuition, and Intelligence.

Thank you, Body, for never abandoning me, for putting up with all my years of abuse and still staying Strong and Believing in my Recovery. I Love You unconditionally.

Last, but not least, I would like to thank you, Maddie Ruud, for inspiring me to Gift my Self in this way today! Blessings to you, My Sister…